I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms. I hugged it tightly, then suddenly…
“I love you~, I love you~”
I dropped the dolls,shocked. “I….lo..ve…you??”
I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.
“I love you~ I love you~”
It can’t be!I pressed all the dolls’ stomach as it piled on the side.
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
“I love you~”
Those words came out non-stop. I…love you…Why didn’t I realize that…That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn’t I realize that he loves me this much…I
took out the doll under the bed and pressed it’s stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the on that I was missing so much…
“Jo…Do you know what today is? We’ve been loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what 486 is? I couldn’t say I love you…. Um… since I was too shy… If you forgive me and take this doll, I will say that I love you… everyday… till I die… Jo… I love you…”
The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked god, why do I only know about all this now? He can’t be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute…For that… and for that reason… to me… it became courage… to live a beautiful life…
END OF STORY.....
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
Part2
That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb…and I collapsed to the ground. He didn’t want to say it easily…How could he….I felt that…Maybe he is not the right guy for me…
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn’t call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That’s how those dolls piled up in my room… everyday.
After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that… I saw him on a street …with another girl…He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me…as he touched the doll…I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell…Why did he gave these to me…Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls…
In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that… it’s going to end.
Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn’t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual…
Me: I don’t need it.
Jin: What….why…
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don’t need this doll, I don’t need it anymore!! I don’t want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.
“I’m sorry” He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll…
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.
Then…Honk~ Honk~With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
“Jin! Move! Move away!” I shouted…
But he didn’t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
“Jin, move!”HONK~!!“Boom!” That sound, so terrifying.
That’s how he went away from me. That’s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me. After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him… And after spending two months like a crazy person…
I took out the dolls. Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days… when we were in love…“One…two… three…”
That was how… I started to count the dolls…“Four hundred and eighty four… four hundred and eighty five…”
It all ended with 485 dolls.
After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn’t call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a little doll every morning outside my house. That’s how those dolls piled up in my room… everyday.
After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that… I saw him on a street …with another girl…He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me…as he touched the doll…I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell…Why did he gave these to me…Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls…
In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to the bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept reminding myself that I am going to forget him, that… it’s going to end.
Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll.
Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came?
I couldn’t help hating him, acting like nothing had happen and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual…
Me: I don’t need it.
Jin: What….why…
I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road.
Me: I don’t need this doll, I don’t need it anymore!! I don’t want to see a person like you again!
I spitted out all the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes very shaking.
“I’m sorry” He apologized in a tiny voice.
He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll…
Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!!
But he ignored me and just went to pick the doll.
Then…Honk~ Honk~With a loud honk, a big truck was heading towards him.
“Jin! Move! Move away!” I shouted…
But he didn’t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll.
“Jin, move!”HONK~!!“Boom!” That sound, so terrifying.
That’s how he went away from me. That’s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me. After that day, I had to go through everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him… And after spending two months like a crazy person…
I took out the dolls. Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I remembered the days I spent with him and started to count the days… when we were in love…“One…two… three…”
That was how… I started to count the dolls…“Four hundred and eighty four… four hundred and eighty five…”
It all ended with 485 dolls.
Part1
I have a boyfriend who grew up with me. His name is Jin.
I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club.
I found that I fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, therewere so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl…
“Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?” I asked.
“I can’t”“Why? You need to study at home?”
I felt disappointment grabbing me.
“No… I am going to meet a friend…”
He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.
To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word ‘love’ only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say ‘I love you’ before. To us, there weren’t any anniversaries at all.
He didn’t say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days…200days…Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don’t know why
Then one day…
Me: Um, Jin, I …
Jin: What…don’t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ……you….um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my ‘three words’ and handed me the doll.
Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room,one by one. There were many…
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But… lunch passed, dinner passed… and soon the sky was dark… he still didn’t call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.
Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin…
Jin: Here…take this…Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What’s this?
Jin: I didn’t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I’m going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen.
Then I shouted…“Wait…”
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left.
“I don’t want to say…that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.”
I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club.
I found that I fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each other in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, therewere so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl…
“Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?” I asked.
“I can’t”“Why? You need to study at home?”
I felt disappointment grabbing me.
“No… I am going to meet a friend…”
He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing.
To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word ‘love’ only came out from my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say ‘I love you’ before. To us, there weren’t any anniversaries at all.
He didn’t say anything from the first day and it continued till 100 days…200days…Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don’t know why
Then one day…
Me: Um, Jin, I …
Jin: What…don’t drag, just say..
Me: I love you.
Jin: ……you….um, just take this doll and go home.
That was how he ignored my ‘three words’ and handed me the doll.
Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday, filled my room,one by one. There were many…
Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him, and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But… lunch passed, dinner passed… and soon the sky was dark… he still didn’t call. It was already tiring to look at the phone anymore.
Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of the house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.
Me: Jin…
Jin: Here…take this…Again, he handed me a little doll.
Me: What’s this?
Jin: I didn’t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I’m going home now, bye.
Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is?
Jin: Today? Huh?
I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen.
Then I shouted…“Wait…”
Jin: You have something to say?
Me: Tell me, tell me you love me…
Jin: What?!
Me: Tell me
I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left.
“I don’t want to say…that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else.”
pgod.. hehe
Grabe na ang practice nmin.. Gnaayos na tlga.. Sakit na gud mga ktwan nmin.. Pero ok lng.. Hehe.. Para sa amin nman to eh.. Atsaka, enjoy nman.. Khit hrap knti sa pgsyaw.. Kc knting move lng, mgsakit na agad.. Parang un nga gnaaisip nmin.. Kya d mkmove ng maayos.. Hehe.. Kailangan isipn nmin na hndi mskit.. Ok!.. Dpat ganun.. Mmm.. Ganun isipn ko.. Dpat cla dn.. Hehe.. =D
Saturday, October 28, 2006
feuding FRIENDS..
Any friendship is bound to run into a misunderstanding sooner or later. A friend may forget to return your phone call, fail to write, ignore an important event, refuse to listen, pass along thoughtless comments or relentlessly compete. These happens to the best of friends but we have to resolve the differences between friends.
Here are some suggestions that will help you resolve your differences:
1. Talk it out.
2. Choose an appropriate time and place.
3. Choose your words wisely.
4. Listen to understand.
5. Give the benefit of the doubt.
6. Give the friendship time.
Here are some suggestions that will help you resolve your differences:
1. Talk it out.
2. Choose an appropriate time and place.
3. Choose your words wisely.
4. Listen to understand.
5. Give the benefit of the doubt.
6. Give the friendship time.
CHEERDANCE!!
Kpgod.. Hehe.. Pero msya nman.. Sarap ng feeling pg mgsayaw.. Alam mo un? ;-) hehe.. Bsta, msya ako dhil d2.. Iba kc.. Enjoy!!..
Friday, October 20, 2006
ksali na ako..
Ngjoin na ako sa cheerdance.. Wla kc cnb c mommy pagtnong ko ulit.. Kya tngin ko ok lng.. Cge lng nkstart na eh.. Sali na ako.. Bhala.. Hehe.. Haay.. Tnx!
Friday, October 13, 2006
2day..
Mmm.. Bad ang cmula ng araw ko.. Haay.. Ndala ko nlng hanggang sa skul.. Pero ok2 na cguro ako ngaun.. Mmm.. Bkt kc uy.. Haay.. Bka d ako mksali sa CHEERDANCE.. Klagot.. =( haay.. Bhala nlng..
Sunday, October 08, 2006
What Girl's Like.....
Guys think that girls are complicated and sometimes are difficult to deal with.. They don't know the truth. Guys just have to learn to work with girls.. Guys act funny and wierd because they are trying to be cool in front of girls.. They try hard to impress girls.. Don't they? ;-)..
Girls are NOT complicated.. Guys are (Hehe..) .. But seriously, girls are totally not complicated at all.. Guys just don't understand.. Girls have bad days that makes the guys think they are complicated.. BUT it is not the right reason.. Everyone has bad days..
Girls ARE interesting.. Just try to get to know them.. You'll see!
Bkt?..
Mmm.. Wla pa rng music.. Nuon ngsound na..
Pero nwla na ngaun.. Haay.. Maghanap pa ako ng paraan.. Hehe..
10 things to have a good relationship..
1. Don’t just love each other, like each other too.
2. Tell her/him why you love her/him often.
3. Make memories together.
4. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
5. Never forget that the simple things in life make life worth living.
6. Do everything to make him/her happy.
7. Don’t evaluate or criticize your partner.
8. Defend and respect your partner.
9. Be there for the good and the bad times.
10. Too much of a good thing can be bad.
2. Tell her/him why you love her/him often.
3. Make memories together.
4. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
5. Never forget that the simple things in life make life worth living.
6. Do everything to make him/her happy.
7. Don’t evaluate or criticize your partner.
8. Defend and respect your partner.
9. Be there for the good and the bad times.
10. Too much of a good thing can be bad.
Friday, October 06, 2006
Riddles..
I am both Mother and Father.
I am seldom still yet I never wander.
I never birth nor nurse.
Answer: ....A tree
What can run but never walks,
has a mouth but never talks,
has a head but never weeps,
has a bed but never sleeps?
Answer: ....River
Twelve white ponies, On a red hill,
Always moving, but standing still.
What are we?
Answer: ....Teeth
First fieldtrip..
Ntpos na ang fieldtrip nmin.. Mmm.. Msaya nman..
Cge kmi kuha ng pics.. Hehe.. Kkpgod pero enjoy nman..
Iba iba ang mga libraries na nkt nmin.. From six different skuls..
Mmm.. Kailangan ko pa gumwa ng comment at suggestions..
Mgpas pa ako.. Dmi ko na naiicp for the improvement of our library..
Hehe.. Sna applicable nman.. Mmm.. Pero wla akong maicp na comments..
mg-icp nlng ako.. Hehe.. Enjoy nman ang fieldtrip.. Hehe..
Yehey!!
Tpos na ang exam sa english subjects..
=D I'm very hapi.. Hehe..
Pero ano kya rsults ng exam ko.. Mmm.. Haay..
Sna mtaas kht papano.. Hehe.. One more to go..
Chinese exam nlng.. Isa nlng.. Huagi.. Mmm.. Yehey!!..
Yehey!!
Thursday, October 05, 2006
2ND day..
Haay.. 2nd day na ng exam..
Parang pangit ang 2nd grading para sa akin..
Cguro bad luck ako sa 2.. Haay..
2nd day ng exam.. 2nd grading..
Haay.. Mmm.. mgstudy nlng muna ako..
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Which Baby are You?
---------------OCTOBER BABY -------------------
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves
to takes things at the center. Inner and physical
beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry
often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and
fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but
recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does
not care to control emotions. Unpredictable.
Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND
sexiest of them all.
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves
to takes things at the center. Inner and physical
beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry
often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and
fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but
recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does
not care to control emotions. Unpredictable.
Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND
sexiest of them all.
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